Example of True Receiving

Just as I was a victim of least common denominator love, (I love you as much as you love me) , I also believed in equalizing all gifts with comparable giving. I felt the need to give back in kind for everything I received and to the very person who had gifted me. Accepting abundance was more like borrowing it for a short period of time and then returning it. I saw my abundance as a lending library. I could have abundance out on loan for several weeks, but then I had to return it. This was not always possible given my resources, so I endeavored to only accept and receive what I could repay.

It occurred to me one day that I did not need to do this. I was playing "even Steven" with everything I was offered. I was limiting my ability to receive to my ability to repay in kind. Gifts are not really gifts when you treat them as mutual exchanges. Upon realizing this, my new mantra became, "I will no longer limit my ability to receive to my ability to repay. Nor will I limit my ability to give, to another's ability to give back. I will be as open to receiving as I can be, and as generous to others as I can be without any expectations." This freed me to receive and give more than my fair share. I saw my abundance as unlimited and a product of God's grace and generosity. 

Excerpt from Heart Journey